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<\/p>\nJest po godzinie 22. Dzieci \u015bpi\u0105 od p\u00f3\u0142 godziny, jak na nich to naprawd\u0119 wcze\u015bnie. Siedz\u0119 sama w domu. On zn\u00f3w w delegacji. Ogl\u0105dam „Killera” i nie mog\u0119 znie\u015b\u0107 g\u0142osu i j\u0119czenia Figury (tej aktorki)! W domu jest wzgl\u0119dnie czysto, mam czas dla siebie, w ciszy mog\u0119 pomy\u015ble\u0107, mam spok\u00f3j w oczach i w duszy. Jestem zadowolona, \u017ce dzieci ju\u017c \u015bpi\u0105 mimo tego, \u017ce nie mia\u0142y intensywnego dnia. Jest maj, a pogoda nie rozpieszcza, wi\u0119c szybko uciekam z nimi do domu. Tak, wtedy najcz\u0119\u015bciej krzycz\u0119, bo za choler\u0119 nie chc\u0105 do niego wraca\u0107!!! Kiedy po kilkunastu minutach powtarzania w k\u00f3\u0142ko: „dzieci, idziemy do domu, jest zimno\u201d, nie widz\u0119 \u017cadnej reakcji, wybucham, wtedy na chwile si\u0119 zatrzymuj\u0105, zauwa\u017c\u0105 mnie i albo zawiesz\u0105 focha i id\u0105, albo maja mnie gdzie\u015b i nadal robi\u0105 swoje.<\/p>\n
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Nikt nie powiedzia\u0142, \u017ce b\u0119dzie lekko, wi\u0119c nie powinnam marudzi\u0107, ale\u2026 Bywaj\u0105 dni, \u017ce czuj\u0119 si\u0119 okropnie. Z powodu krzyku, z powodu niech\u0119ci do zabawy z dzie\u0107mi, kiedy nie chce mi si\u0119 podnie\u015b\u0107 ty\u0142ka z kanapy, gdy dzieciaki prosz\u0105 o szklank\u0119 wody, dlaczego zawsze wtedy kiedy ledwo zd\u0105\u017c\u0119 usi\u0105\u015b\u0107??!!! Czuj\u0119 si\u0119 \u017ale kiedy, s\u0142ysz\u0105 moje sprzeczki z m\u0119\u017cem, kiedy za d\u0142ugo nie wracam do domu bo chc\u0119 od nich odpocz\u0105\u0107, uciec.
\nW momencie, kiedy czuj\u0119 si\u0119 okropnie, pojawiaj\u0105 si\u0119 wyrzuty sumienia. Usprawiedliwiam si\u0119 wtedy, \u017ce chyba nie jest ze mn\u0105 a\u017c tak \u017ale, skoro jeszcze je mam…<\/p>\n
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Jestem matk\u0105 dw\u00f3jki dzieci. Matk\u0105, kt\u00f3ra stara si\u0119 nad nimi panowa\u0107 ale bywa, \u017ce to one panuj\u0105 nade mn\u0105. Jestem raczej surowa, stanowcza. W niekt\u00f3rych kwestiach nie ma ze mn\u0105 dyskusji.
\nJednak t\u0105 z pozoru tward\u0105 matk\u0119 cz\u0119sto dopadaj\u0105 dni, kiedy czuje si\u0119 zm\u0119czona tym ca\u0142ym macierzy\u0144stwem. Ona si\u0119 nie dusi, krzyczy jak jest jej \u017ale, \u015bmieje si\u0119 kiedy jest szcz\u0119\u015bliwa i p\u0142acze kiedy jest smutna. Bywa emocjonaln\u0105 karuzel\u0105. Brzmi znajomo? To ja, a mo\u017ce te\u017c i Ty?<\/p>\n
Macierzy\u0144stwa nie mo\u017cna dzieli\u0107 na najci\u0119\u017csze i l\u017cejsze etapy. Jednak ka\u017cdy etap jest dla kobiety wyzwaniem. Wyka\u0144czaj\u0105 nas najpierw nieprzespane noce, karmienie, p\u0142acz, kolki. Jednak to jest tylko etap, kt\u00f3ry mija. P\u00f3\u017aniej przychodz\u0105 kolejno dzieci\u0119ce bunty! To etap dla matek o mocnych nerwach, czyli dla ka\u017cdej z osobna, haha. Mimo stanowczo\u015bci, nie zawsze da si\u0119 nad dzieckiem zapanowa\u0107. P\u00f3\u017aniej zaczynaj\u0105 si\u0119 pysk\u00f3wki, niepos\u0142usze\u0144stwo, nast\u0119pnie wypominanie b\u0142\u0119d\u00f3w i walka o dominowanie w domu (to ju\u017c Olki do\u015bwiadczenia, ze „starszakami” ![\"😉\"](\"https:\/\/static.xx.fbcdn.net\/images\/emoji.php\/v9\/t57\/1\/16\/1f609.png\")
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Taka jest czarna strona macierzy\u0144stwa. To cz\u0119sto rezygnacja z siebie, z pracy, z kontakt\u00f3w towarzyskich. To krzyk matki, jej p\u0142acz z bezradno\u015bci, braku zrozumienia, wsparcia. To bezsilno\u015b\u0107 w stosunku do dzieci, do ich uporu, zawzi\u0119to\u015bci i rz\u0105dzenia nami. To szybka k\u0105piel i t\u0142uste w\u0142osy. To obdrapane paznokcie. To kobieta zamkni\u0119ta w domu z dzieckiem. To cz\u0119sto kobieta zale\u017cna, ograniczona, pozostawiona samej sobie. To frustracja, ci\u0105g\u0142e obwinianie si\u0119, \u017ce za ma\u0142o si\u0119 zrobi\u0142o, za ma\u0142o si\u0119 da\u0142o. To b\u00f3l i okropna z\u0142o\u015b\u0107. To ci\u0105g\u0142y strach\u2026 Znacie to?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Jest po godzinie 22. Dzieci \u015bpi\u0105 od p\u00f3\u0142 godziny, jak na nich to naprawd\u0119 wcze\u015bnie. Siedz\u0119 sama w domu. On zn\u00f3w w delegacji. Ogl\u0105dam „Killera” i nie mog\u0119 znie\u015b\u0107 g\u0142osu i j\u0119czenia Figury (tej aktorki)! W domu jest wzgl\u0119dnie czysto, mam czas dla siebie, w ciszy mog\u0119 pomy\u015ble\u0107, mam spok\u00f3j w oczach i w duszy. 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